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had a fabuleux time, albeit brief, in beautiful Montreal! |
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| Damn Odd Dream |
[Mar. 2nd, 2007|10:49 pm] |
I had to write it down so I didn't forget. I was in a giant metropolis and for some reason I required access to a building.. I walked a long way in the city to get there.. and upon getting fairly close to this building, I discover that the only way to enter it is through the public transit system.
The only way to catch a bus there was not standing on the street, you had to climb these narrow concrete-and-steel towers and wait there. Once you were in a tower, you couldn't get off of it due to the design. Well, you could get off, but you'd fall about 30-40 feet to the pavement below.
I reluctantly climbed the tower and waited for the bus.. the tower was only about 3-feet square, and crowded.
all of a sudden the tower started to MOVE.
It retracted some kind of strut, and crossed the street, and stopped right next to a four-storeyed building.
it was in danger of falling over.. The fat guy leaned in the opposite direction of the lean and we were precariously alright.
i just wanted to get off. some people managed to grab onto the roof of the adjuacent building and got off. i couldn't.
It is now that I noticed a horse in the lower structures of the tower, presumably the means of locomotion? the horse was standing on several steel footholds.
The horse lost its footing, and the tower seemed to sort of "unfold" in a diagonal direction. I managed to swing myself off the tower and make my way to the ground safely. I ran and ran and ran.
** the end** |
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| Late night (or early morning) ruminations |
[Jan. 14th, 2007|03:44 am] |
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Lately I feel as if I am a spectator, taking on an omniscient view of my own life. Consequently, I overanalyze everything. I've pretty much distilled it down to this. We begin our existence, full of promise, hope, abundant optimism and open-mindedness. As we grow, we become more cynical, questioning, regimented, set in our ways, and assimilated into the structures and social constructs that surround us.
As such our entire lives center around the acquisition of stuff, or the potential for such acquisition. The stuff makes us happy.. or at least that's what it's supposed to do. We attempt to form pair-bonds because that is what everyone does (or is expected to do), and we do, whether it's good for us or not. We educate ourselves so that we can acquire the means to acquire yet more stuff. Because the stuff makes us happy. or at least that's what it's supposed to do. We work until old age when we are supposed to retire and finally be able to do the things we always wanted to do.. although our bodies aren't what they used to be when we originally wanted to do those things. Then, when you die, all the stuff you acquired is of no use to you.
So I find myself asking, what is the point? |
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| Poor deaf people :( |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|06:05 pm] |
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Now that I don't have cable, my TV shows only two things: DVDs and CBC. while working on the computer, I tend to put the volume off and just read the captions until something captures my interest. But oh geeez they are awful! waaay behind and full of vicious typos, sometimes omitting entire segments of dialog. Poor deaf people. Closed captioning sucks.. at least it does here. But there are times when it's actually quite good. I haven't seen it this bad ever. Maybe it's amateurs week. |
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[Dec. 19th, 2006|02:39 pm] |
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I fear that I am becoming everything I dreaded becoming. |
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| Peace, through global ecstasy? |
[Dec. 2nd, 2006|07:22 pm] |
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In my various internet wanderings, I came across GlobalOrgasm.org
From their mission statement:
The mission of the Global Orgasm is to effect change in the energy field of the Earth through input of the largest possible surge of human energy. Now that there are two more US fleets heading for the Persian Gulf with anti- submarine equipment that can only be for use against Iran, the time to change Earth’s energy is NOW!
The date for this global orgasm has been set to the 22 of December, the Winter Solstice, for the maximum effect on the worlds "probability" field... Before, during and after this event one is to concentrate their thoughts on good vibes of peace and happiness.
The site even has a downloadable (MAC-only, hmph.) countdown widget to assist. hehe, that's as good a reason as any for a good time ;)
Tonight, an excursion to see a band play.. should be good. and ugh it's Christmas season again. I'm sort of overwhelmed I dont even want to do anything about it. |
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| Ah Caramel! How I hate to love thee... |
[Nov. 11th, 2006|01:29 pm] |
In 5 days, I've gone through 32 of them.. an entire jumbo pack, with no help.
that's:
7800 calories
270 grams of fat
160 mg of Cholesterol
6.4 g of Sodium
960 g of sugars
32 g of protein
That can't be a good thing. |
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| "It's the Holy Land, not the Homo Land" |
[Nov. 10th, 2006|01:34 pm] |
Day off again today. Activities. Napping, and listening to news.
Documentary on A Sgt in the U.S. army, whom the reporter has been following for a few years now. You see the progression of this polite young man from a humble family.. Hardened by the horrors he's seen and felt. In '05 he related being afraid of being perceived as a changed man upon return to his parents and family, that his hardening will be even more pronounced, from his first tour of duty. At the end I find out he was killed in Iraq in late August of this year by a roadside bomb. Not even 25, but you could see how fast he aged throughout the mini-documentary.
I see all these educated, beautiful, intelligent, strong, decent young men - the hope and potential for their nation's tenuous future - finding their demise in a foreign land. For what? I'm in tears, and it doesn't even involve me in the remotest.
off on tangents, chords and secants
Isn't it heartening to know that groups typically at each other's throats, are able to find common ground in bigotry? Rabbi Yehuda Levin says "It's the Holy Land, not the Homo Land", in reaction to the 2006 Gay Pride parade that was to take place in Jerusalem, likening the event to a "spiritual rape". Whoa, he's clever.
Other important thoughts:
* I've always wanted an easy-bake oven, but never got one as a child.
* What the heck am I doing.
* Napping breeds more napping...
* If I'm lucky, I might live through 4000 saturday nights. I've already wasted about 1300 of them so far. Must do something good this weekend.
* Stuff doesn't make me happy. I remember thinking my life would be much better once I acquired certain things. The reality doesn't live up to the ideal
* I really want to believe that anything is possible.
A dip of my head to the late Ed Bradley. I grew up on you, I always wondered how you managed to be so bold and calm in the face of some pretty potentially dicey situations. A trailblazer for sure.
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[Nov. 8th, 2006|01:39 pm] |
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Rumsfeld Steps Down
It's about freakin' time! Of course, the damage is done. I don't envy his replacement one iota.
That is all. |
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| I am just another number... |
[Nov. 7th, 2006|09:54 pm] |
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Yay I got my own barcode. For my EP.
Now, what's next! Revamp and release!
Easier said than done.. So much work.
In other news, Mr. Dell is visiting our office tomorrow. I can't imagine how weird it must feel to walk into a building that has your name in huge letters affixed to the side. And for sure, everyone will be looking at/for him. Of course, he is probably very accustomed to it. They've assembled a MASSIVE tent out in the 2ndary parking lot to accomodate the cutely named "Michael Dell Fireside Chat" with employees.. Should be an interesting day. It starts at 6am when i go to breakfast with my friend Charlie, it's her bday and I'm taking her out to Cora (mmmmm strawberry crepes with hazelnut chocolat+bacon... just dreamy).
hmm cold outside, warm fireside chat with the Big Boss, and getting paid for it too? No complaints here, says I. |
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[Nov. 5th, 2006|09:18 pm] |
Ah, Sunday at work, and all is fine.
I sometimes hate when I get paid.. today I feel drained, as if I'd attended an orgy of spending.. Friday was chatting on MSN with a friend who's feeling kind of low lately.. I took him to Cora's for breakfast... at 1pm. Spent $30. then we went to CostCo so I could check out winter tires for the car, as the time is getting closer and closer.. Estimates of $800-1100. Dont have those funds just yet. Looked around at other stuff but ended up buying a pretty votive candle holder that fits about 8 candles. Perfect for my living room... anyway..
After leaving CostCo, went to a Chrysler dealership to check on tire prices. Very bad. My friend wanted to check out the Mercedes dealership.. Gosh it's so strange walking into a place like that and feeling sooo out-of-place. Tried to look comfortable examining a brochure, hoping no one would come over to ask me a question. Walking amongst cars that go for more than some homes! I don't really care for those cars, but I wasn't there for me.
Oil Change: $87
Picked up my weekly wine + a little extra for the evening. $30. Bucket O'Chicken@ KFC: $18. I *swear* I saw AUNT JEMIMA in the parking lot eating her chicken and glaring at me indignantly as we slipped into the car. Why?
Saturday. More Costco, for groceries.. Gosh the CostCo boys are adorable. The hiring manager Must be gay *chuckle*. All things considered, I didn't do too bad.. $80
In the night, I managed to suppress the urge to go out and spend more $$. Stayed home, played piano and managed to write some random stuff.
I'm not getting closer to *not* living paycheque-to-paycheque. But hey, I could die tomorrow, might as well enjoy it.
This morning, read some more Classic Essays in Sexuality.. some of this stuff dates to the 19th Century.. it's pretty neat to see the evolution of attitudes and views, especially with respect to women.
I can't wait to get under the covers tonight and read some more.. and perhaps dream of warmer days, lying in the cool grass staring up at the sky, not a care in the world. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2006|04:12 pm] |
At work today...
Stepped outside to go and grab some food from the car. As soon as I opened the door, I received a chilling (literally) reminder of the time of year it is. I'm not a fan of winter in general. I despise biting cold winds, and having to don layer upon layer of clothing in order to step outside to get the mail...or that clammy feeling you get when your feet sweat inside your boots and then cools...coming in from the cold and having your extremities throb in pain as they thaw... salt stains on the carpets, on pant bottoms, on shoes...
Now, trying to think positively, I do like the nice cozzy feeling I get when I am snuggled up near the fireplace reading a book, near the window, while mere inches away the snow falls gently on the other side of the window pane.
Weekend:
Thursday and Friday were lost on laundry; gawd I have too many clothes.. I just kept wearing new things until one day I realized that the pile of to-wash clothes exceeded the capacity of both laundry hampers! Yet, my closets and shelves were still full of clean clothes! I am slow to part with clothes that still fit me..even if they are unfashionable.
Was supposed to go and check out the War Museum on Thurs eve with Wayne, but the poor guy's down for the count.. bloody flu!
Saturday, The Arlington Partay of Halloweenism. Met some cool new people, and saw some familiar faces I haven't seen in a while. Claude, the boy that defies time, brilliant musician. Some fabulously costumed folks. Heather, sexy girl of nature. Tony, Coconut-clad cutie. Mr. PacMan (!) and some indian outsourcers. Eric, exuberant returnee from England. Matthew, calculator-toting Poindexter...and so on and so forth. James was there too, that was interesting, sigh!
I think Chris will be my new partner in crime.. Whenever we get together, serendipity and fun are sure to follow! We went to E later on, and on the dancefloor ran into another Chris that I occasionally chat with. He was saying "I would love to go to MONTREAL".. And I said "Sure, wanna go now?" and he was in accord. At 0230 AM We decided to go to Montreal to hit up STEREO. I've never been there.. It was crazy fun.. although our admission by the time we arrived at 4am, was $50/each, and coat check is NOT included! He paid for my entrance in appreciation for driving up to Montreal. I had a blast danced til nearly 10am! David Morales was spinning. Then high-tailed it back to Ottawa in time to go to work. What a weekend. Damn, I love spontonaiety!
EDIT: I dressed as *white* michael jackson, while Chris dressed as *black* michael jackson (Chris is white!) |
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[Oct. 26th, 2006|01:14 am] |
In the room was the last person on Earth. Suddenly, there was a knock at the door. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2006|07:14 pm] |
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Recess sucks now
"Officials at an elementary school south of Boston have banned kids from playing tag, touch football and any other unsupervised chase game during recess for fear they'll get hurt and hold the school liable.
Recess is "a time when accidents can happen," said Willett Elementary School Principal Gaylene Heppe, who approved the ban."
WOW man how lame is that!? This is the most ludicrous thing I've heard in recent memory. We're setting ourselves up for a generation that will be
heavily medicated
obese
impatient/restless
allergic to everything
vacuous
short-attention-spanned
but hey, at least they'll be safe from getting scrapes and bruises and litigation.
Does anyone actually care about FUN anymore? Part of living is in having fun, and sometimes fun involves a little bit of potential damage. Kids LEARN from their injuries and are better off on the whole from being exposed to potential hazards.
I've met boys that grew up on a farm and they almost never get sick, are in pretty darn good shape and they've got stories to tell about various hurts lol. I wasn't the most active person as a kid, but have had my share of falls off the monkey bars. Would my parents sue the school board as a result? Naw, they'd give me a good tongue lashing and say "serves you right for doing that!" geez. |
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| 5,760 minutes in review |
[Sep. 17th, 2006|11:18 pm] |
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Hmm.
Thursday, worked a lot
Friday, slept in and got some much-needed rest, then went out for drinks with the cutie from work who's visiting from El Salvador, met up with co-workers and much drinkage ensued LOL. Much fun. May I add, holy snikees the Brookstreet Hotel is über posh.
Saturday, slept in some more, and then hung out with James in the afternoon for food and a relaxing time out in the beautiful surroundings of Gatineau park. We left the woods pretty late and it was dark.. I feared that we'd get lost or attacked by some creature at one point, and we had no light sources or survival gear. Went to Dale #4's birthday partay, imbibed much Beaujolais (among other things!) and a generally good time. Andy Shaver was back in town too from France, it was good to see him again!
Sunday, woke up in Hull, had breakfast and then went off to work. Work was not bad.. cool thing, they're unveiling a Work From Home program. Basically if I apply and get accepted, I will get an office allowance to set up a home office, and then they will also cover a high speed internet connection and one phone line. it's a pilot project, so I think it could be an interesting opportunity.. however, I would lose the social aspect of working at the office and being seen, but on the plus side I'd be getting a shiny new laptop to use and I'd save oodles on commuting stress+gas woes!
Stuff to think about.. decisions decisions. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2006|03:22 pm] |
Long day
So, today is my "Thursday" One more day 'til freedom. I'm not complaining, work is going fine. Must go and pick up some assorted furnishings this week. Need to rent/borrow a truck so that I can pick up that hide-a-bed. It weighs a tonne I'm sure. I'll have to get some strong arms to help me out with that one. Tomorrow morning I pick up a small, yet stylish bookcase (should fit in the car!), very handy, only $15.
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In other news, I went out on Sat night, didn't stay out too long. On the way back home, I stopped at a traffic light on Bank Street. This woman motions to me as if to ask for directions.. I wound down my window a bit further in order to hear her as I turned down my stereo. As she got closer, I realized she was asking for change. I said "I don't have any..." Then she was like "Want to go for a dfhsifda"... I couldn't understand her.. I asked her to repeat herself, and then it was clear. "Want to go for a blowjob?". I was shocked.. This woman looked like she'd been through the mill of life -- twice at least! I felt sorry for her, and at the same time, disgusted. I tried to be polite in my speechless incredulosity, and just managed to muster a simple "no thanks", with no judgement implied. The light changed to green, and in my mind, it wasn't soon enough!
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I made it to the gym on Saturday, it felt good. Ran into my friend from high school, Amy, and damn she looks good, especially for recently having had her 2nd daughter! Not only that, I nearly fell off my treadmill due to the high eye-candy quotient there.. I'll be back more often now! I dunno why I put it off this long! It felt good to do up my cardio a bit more.. I truly agree that once your body is in good shape, your mind can only benefit from it. Next I'll work on building up some tone.. My friend recommended the BodyPump classes, for dramatic results. 1 hr of high impact which involves weights apparently. Sounds like a plan! |
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[Aug. 11th, 2006|03:53 pm] |
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Well, it seems I've created this a long time ago and forgot the login. hahaha. A recent wake up call by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) lautreamax prompted me to get this thing going.
PayDay, yay. I worked my volunteer shift at the Civic Hospital, and then thought about going to the gym (a membership which I have NEVER used to date, but I get one from work), only to realize I forgot my sneakers.. no waay I'll be running on a treadmil etc in loafers!
Since I was already on the road, I proceeded to get some foodstuffs that were badly needed.
Not feeling much anything about anything at the moment, except my annoyance/dismay at the whole fiasco going on abroad that's trickling back to here.. (You know, that most vile insanity Conflict in Israel/Lebanon.
And, to lautreamax, Unfortunately I am not a new person to you, I've been lurking from time to time on here! You got me all into zip.ca :) |
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